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Fleur East had told how losing her late father Malcolm was the ‘hardest thing she’s ever experienced’ as she dedicates her time on Strictly to him.

The singer, 35, detailed the ’emotional and mental’ strain his death put on her, which she admitted has left a ‘hole in her life’ ever since.

Fleur said nothing will ever be as hard again, therefore following a few knock backs in the competition she details how she ‘comes back fighting’.

Tragic: Fleur East had told how losing her late father Malcolm was the 'hardest thing she's ever experienced' as she dedicates her time on Strictly to him (pictured with her father)

Tragic: Fleur East had told how losing her late father Malcolm was the ‘hardest thing she’s ever experienced’ as she dedicates her time on Strictly to him (pictured with her father)

Fleur, who was in the bottom two for the second time on Sunday, reflected on her Strictly experience so far and the death of her father in 2020.

Speaking on her Hits Radio Breakfast Show on Tuesday, Fleur said: ‘In life there are so many challenges, so many things you have to face, and I’m going to be 100% honest here, losing my Dad in 2020 is the hardest thing I have ever experienced, emotionally, mentally, and there’s been such a hole in my life ever since he left.

‘The whole reason I’m doing this show is for him, so if to be in the dance off is part of my journey, if that’s the challenge, there is going to be nothing harder than losing my father. So, I will pick myself up every time, remind myself why I’m there, keep fighting and come back stronger.’

Emotional: The singer, 35, detailed the 'emotional and mental' strain his death put on her, which she admitted has left a 'hole in her life' ever since

Emotional: The singer, 35, detailed the ’emotional and mental’ strain his death put on her, which she admitted has left a ‘hole in her life’ ever since 

Elsewhere during the show, Fleur delved deeper into what it’s really like to be part of the dreaded Strictly dance off. 

 She said: ‘I can’t hide any of my emotions. I am just 100% out there! When Tess goes ‘and first in the dance off is…’ in your head you’re going ‘don’t say my name, don’t say my name, not me, not me, not me’ and then she says ‘Fleur and Vito’! 

‘I was like oh my goodness and I audibly groaned. I didn’t even know anyone could hear that! But I’m obviously going to be groaning, I don’t want to be in the dance off!

Heartbreak: Fleur said nothing will ever be as hard again, therefore following a few knock backs in the competition she details how she 'comes back fighting' (pictured with her father and sister Keshia)

Heartbreak: Fleur said nothing will ever be as hard again, therefore following a few knock backs in the competition she details how she ‘comes back fighting’ (pictured with her father and sister Keshia)

‘I’m enjoying it and I want to be there every week so if you heard that groan that’s just real, that’s just me keeping it real!

‘How are you going to react? You’re not going to go ‘yes, let’s go it’s dance off time!’ You want to go through – that’s what you want to hear.’

Fleur previously revealed she cried after her second performance thinking about her beloved father Malcolm who sadly passed away in 2020.

Following her Viennese Waltz with partner Vito Coppola, Fleur could be seen wiping away tears, telling host Claudia Winkleman the tough rehearsals were to blame. 

However speaking on her Hits Radio show the following week, she admitted her uncle thoughtfully wore her late father’s bracelet to the show, which left her ‘blubbering’.

Tears: Fleur revealed she cried after her second performance thinking about her beloved father Malcolm who sadly passed away in 2020

Tears: Fleur revealed she cried after her second performance thinking about her beloved father Malcolm who sadly passed away in 2020

She said: ‘All day I was trying to make sure I found the right emotion for this dance as I was really worried about going on there, being quite blank and empty and just doing the steps. I really wanted to commit to it’. 

‘But just before we danced, I went to see my family who were sitting in the audience and my Uncle Sean lifted his arm to show me his wrist – and he was wearing my Dad’s bracelet’. 

She continued: ‘He didn’t even say anything to me, just showed it to me and that set me off. It was just seconds before I performed and with everything else and just being nervous, I started crying, blubbering!’

It came after Fleur said her cousin went to see a psychic medium and they delivered a tear-jerking good luck message from her dad, who passed away after suffering a heart attack.

Speaking on her Hits Radio Breakfast Show last week, Fleur played a voice note from her cousin in which the medium revealed she’s communicating with ‘a spirit called Malcolm’ who has a daughter that ‘sings or dances’. 

The psychic went on to say: ‘[Malcolm’s] daughter is about to start something, she’s about to start an adventure, as he’s calling it. He says to tell her I’m so proud of her and give her all the luck in the world.’

Too much: Overcome with emotion Fleur was comforted by host Tess Daly (left)

Too much: Overcome with emotion Fleur was comforted by host Tess Daly (left) 

Emotion: It came after Fleur said her cousin went to see a psychic medium and they delivered a tear-jerking good luck message from her dad

Emotion: It came after Fleur said her cousin went to see a psychic medium and they delivered a tear-jerking good luck message from her dad

The singer explained: ‘In 72 hours I’ll be dancing live for the first time and it’s really exciting but something really weird has happened to me ahead of the Strictly weekend. 

‘On Sunday I had a message from one of my cousins who had been to see a medium – people that speak to the spirit world. 

‘I’ve never gone to a medium because I do believe in it and I’m quite scared about going because I never wanted to test it. But my cousin went and this happened.

Tender: Fleur played a voice note on her radio show  in which the medium revealed she's communicating with 'a spirit called Malcolm' (pictured) who has a daughter that 'sings or dances'

Tender: Fleur played a voice note on her radio show  in which the medium revealed she’s communicating with ‘a spirit called Malcolm’ (pictured) who has a daughter that ‘sings or dances’ 

‘So my Dad passed away in 2020, his name was Malcolm and apparently he came through and wished me good luck ahead of Strictly.’ 

Fleur described receiving the message as an ‘eerie but comforting’ experience because she has been ‘so anxious’ about not having her beloved late father around for such a big moment in her life.

She added: ‘Is that not really weird? It’s eerie but it’s really comforting as well. 

‘Leading up to Strictly has been so nerve-racking and I’ve been so anxious and not having my Dad here for the first time before something so big in my life is huge. 

‘So to get a message like that is the set up I needed before the big weekend.’

Fleur previously admitted she chose to take part in this year’s Strictly Come Dancing in honour of her late father, who was a huge fan of the BBC One competition.  

She said: ‘I hope I get to dance to some of my songs. For me, it’s quite emotional. My dad who passed away in 2020, Strictly was his favourite show. I’m going to be doing it for him.

Dancing queen: Fleur previously admitted she chose to take part in this year's Strictly Come Dancing in honour of her late father , who was a huge fan of the BBC One competition

Dancing queen: Fleur previously admitted she chose to take part in this year’s Strictly Come Dancing in honour of her late father , who was a huge fan of the BBC One competition

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